Zigzags have their benefits (a.k.a. we all have our own path to walk)

Last night I was struck for a moment by this overwhelming feeling that I screwed up... I chose the wrong major in university, I didn't look into opportunities early enough, I took the wrong path, I missed my chance, and it's too late to change course now.

After a couple of moments, I realized how useless this sort of thinking is (although I fall prey to it more often than I'd care to admit). Doesn't my attitude decide my limits?

What do I want to do? How do I get from point (A) to point (B)? Do I want it enough to put in the effort?

I need to think more in terms of possibilities, than in terms of roadblocks. I am the one who is holding myself back.

In getting from point A to point B, you might not walk a linear path, but consider the views and experiences along the way...

Monkey in the... Wait, I'm the baby!

Although I'm the youngest in my family, I've always taken the mediator role. In most senses of the word, I am in the middle. While my sisters are more polarized in their tastes and views, I often like both or see both of  their reasoning. It is interesting to me that I find this both a point of pride and of alienation.

I used to be insecure about my inability to choose (I sincerely like both! Candy AND chocolate; Clubs AND sports; Rom/Coms AND Mysteries etc.) I once got called out by a guy who told me that I'm always on the fence about things. This was startling to me because I hadn't ever thought of it that plainly. You see, I'm not unable to make decisions, rather it is just harder for me to choose than some. Often it's deciding between two 'likes'. So while some may say 'on the fence' or 'indecisive', others say 'well-rounded' or 'able to see both sides of the point' (thanks mom!)

Everything in moderation though. Life is about choices, and I've gotten better at making them along the way. Even if you like both, you can't have it all. Eventually you have to choose.

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Hello Blog World.

I considered making a theme for this blog, but couldn't completely decide what my intentions are with it. I could just say I like to write (which is true). I could also add that I enjoy reading blogs and wanted to start fresh from the one I started last year (which is also true). Instead, I will just say that I will type things that come to mind, things about my life, things that catch my attention, things I wonder about... Maybe you'll check back and see if you like what I have to say. If not, no hard feelings.

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